I had a mini break-through this morning that had been building for a while.

As an actor, it took me a long time to learn to relax into roles. I didn't even know it as a technique until Louis and Shakespeare Santa Cruz. Around that time, there was a shift in my acting. An improvement. Father Fred said I grew up out of high school acting. What I did was less affected by what I planned, or thought would be good or funny, and just what happened. I found a more emotionally releasing way of acting, which, whether or it looked better, it felt better.

I have begun to feel the same sort of change in my writing. I've learned that I can't fake it, the best work comes when I'm relaxed and, as my dad say, thinking at the same page as I'm writing. I can feel that metative groove when I'm in it and I can feel it just outside of me when it's close.

I don't know what the solution would be, but I think it might be to warm up before I write. A quick Howard or a few sun salutations. Or maybe even a full on Louis style vocal warm up. I rarely had the patience to do this when I acted, but that really is the problem.

Writing needs to be a matter of listening, and listening needs to be from stillness. I think I'll find stillness through physical conditioning and relaxation.

(this was inspired by a point made in david sheilds' 'reality hunger' that there was a major shift in culture when it became cheaper to print a book than to alter one. printing a new book became the way to make money and the power (as well as profit) fell into the hands of the creators. now, things are shifting. once again altering a book is cheaper than creating one. so, perhaps, the money and power are shifting away from the creators, toward the alters. or, as sheilds says, "now relationships, links, connections, and sharing are [the basis of wealth]. value has shifted away from a copy toward the may ways to recall, annotate, personalize, edit, authenticate, display, mark transfer, and engage a work. art is a conversion, not a patent office. the citation of sources belongs to the realms of journalism and scholarship, not art. reality can't be copyrighted.')


capitalism is the system of controlling and ensuring the circulation of resources by creating a imaginary mediating object, money. it works to motivate people to find resources, shape resources and design them. 

it is based on the assumption that everything can be attached to a monitary value. this assumption has been true for most of the life of capitalism.

lately something is changing. lately information has been increasingly de-monied and therefore operates further and further outside of the capitalist system.

mental resources are decreasingly circulated by the forces capitalism can sway. physical resources are still moved and kept moving by money.

information and materials are operating on different systems.

we have no system to control information in the way we can control resources. if we do, we have no name for it. if we have a name for it, nobody has told me.